It’s been a really stressful and rough April for me ~ I’ve been worried about being on the right path or not and trying to figure out what I really want to do. I’ve been struggling about what direction I should be headed but I realized that one of the best lessons that I learned while traveling was that there’s no one singular right path.
We make our way best that we can and learn to adapt as we go along ~ learning to trust ourselves in making the best decisions that we can. Learning that perfection is a bit overrated and that even the best laid plans can fall through but that it still works out in the end ~ that you end up in the right place at the right time with the right people if you really allow yourself to be open to the universe. It’s happened so many times before and will continue to happen if I just trust in myself and stay open ~ I’m also reminded of what I wrote during my travels to Jordan this time last year:
In Jordan, I see countless stars filling up all the night sky, structures and monuments created thousands of years ago, ancient and modern history and civilizations, and I realize that I am but a tiny creature on one small planet in this vast universe occupying but a blip in time. But I do not feel insignificant or minuscule…on the contrary, I feel completely blessed to be alive.
That somehow conditions came together perfectly for life to start at all on this planet of ours and then that I am here now and that I am conscious of even being alive and have the power to create the life I live. That I have been shaped in part by all that has come before me and I will help shape what comes after me. Though it was quite the impulsive decision to leave Asia and head to Jordan; and even with it being more difficult than I envisioned, it feels like this is where I am supposed to be.
So I’ll take it one day at a time and make peace and maybe even learn to celebrate the messiness of life. Because really isn’t it something to just be alive? The mystery and beautiful of life and the world is truly magical…
PS I know it’s been awhile for a post so I’m aiming to have one for you in the next week or so!